It is difficult to effectively control your life. Have you ever stopped to think about what controls you, what moves you, what holds you where you are? Have you stopped to wonder if it’s your family, your job, your assets, your friends?
Have you stopped to think why you are doing all this that you do if it is for the future, for the present or for the past that does not come back and that can not be changed?
They are deep questions, but they need good explanations because in what depends on the explanations you can be living or dying, little by little.
When I was a child, I thought, “what is the worst form of death?”, After much thought, I came to the conclusion that it would be burned since a simple burn hurts a lot, so imagine the whole body hurting – and indeed the burned ones in hospitals suffer very, it is quite painful to be burned. At worst, burning away costs a few minutes of intense pain and then comes death that frees you from all possible pain.
Now, is it a life of pain, of hopelessness, of melancholy, of regrets, of low esteem, of poverty, of memories of things in the past that you have failed to do or have done wrong? A lifetime to repent of dozens of wrong decisions, known wrong from the start, of futile pleasures, of incomplete joys, of easy but meaningless laughter, empty and worthless? Not that I am the good Samaritan. Not that I know how to give a moral lesson from the top of my 30s, far from it, I feel that I am still beginning to understand a little of the world and of life, and also how we can live life.
I look back, for only five years and see how they have gone fast – extremely fast, although it is full days, weekends busy with work, work and more work, lots of reading, few trips, some (many) travel waivers Holidays, weddings of friends, more moments with the family, more time to date, to flirt, to leave to do the social in the ballads, even more at this age of 25-30 years, even being single and with the whole world to explore.
Of everything I did I have very little regret, the price I paid, I would say that it has already been paid, because everything has a return if I were an inconsequent I could not dare to write something here. Either way you will pay a price for your daily choices, five, ten or twenty years from now you will get an invoice for you that may be negative or positive, credit or debt, joy or sadness, call as you wish, but at least not Make a mistake If you are young and you know the right choices why not take them now? What prevents you? Do you think life will give you so many chances like that?
Nowadays I know that no, some things have already been withdrawn and will never come back, there comes a time in life that you have to decide whether or not to dedicate yourself to a project, a dating, a public contest, A job abroad, a change of city or country, and you will one day realize that the rest of your life depended on it – it’s the famous butterfly effect.
To answer the title of the post (I always roll a little) – I discovered this answer, it is not burned or drowned, it is gradual. Yes. The worst way to die is slowly. You can die by age 60, at age 70, at age 80, but the truth is this is what I see, what I perceive and what I listen to mainly because of my profession and to work in the health area.
The truth is that my friends, people kill themselves little by little, even if they do not want to or know, most people are fond of dieting, physical exercise, taking care of their chronic diseases, taking better care of their families, their relationships with their Friends, are lining up for the harmful effects of drugs, alcohol, cigarettes, excessive spending, lack of contributions for future retirements, contracting of debts to pay for expensive things, everything, everything is interconnected.
They are an empty lives, really. People just give up life while still alive, it’s a slow type of suicide – not suicide, but it’s a quit of life, a kind of quitting, but it’s a type. Suicide is a quick act to end all the pain and hopelessness, actually, suicide does indeed have many variables but that’s not what I want to talk about.
I want to specifically talk about wasting life in life and living and the implications that all this causes. I’ve been broken, but I’ve been broken and hoping to improve one day, not a silly dream but a little feeling that it could work one day, and here I am, a few hundred decisions that culminated in it, I’m still basically the same, With more hope in the future and with more material comfort (a little) and with more psychological comfort (I’m not religious or anything).
What I want to say, in these grotesque times of hopelessness, crisis, Brazil ending, world ending, economy crumbling, unemployment and inflation and blab la blab is that you can win individually, yes, you can truly triumph in this sea of mud that is the world, Or Brazil and its city, and can live much better or move one day to a better place or the outside (why not?).
You do not have to swallow the sour bitterness of hopelessness, you do not have to live drinking at a bar every weekend with failures, you do not have to share your sadness with your wife and children making them suffer from poverty, alcohol or an unworthy life, I think even treason – When things do not go well the human being achieves the feat of making small worsen and this becomes a spiral, you want an example, you spend a lot, win well, have a wife and two children, get unemployed, start drinking, quit Alone for a party, stay with anyone, fuck without a condom, get pregnant (who already got his phone and facebook), returns home, passes the disease to his wife, a month later the pregnant party sends a letter of justice To your house, you go out to drink, you start to use drugs, you sell your car, your wife separates, you discover her illness, you get broken, you buy a motorcycle, you get drunk on a motorcycle, you cause a traffic collision, Public hospital, your leg is rotten, you amputate, you are now a poor divorcee, unemployed and without leg and with drug debts.
I greatly increased the example, unfortunately, it is an example that with its variations are the reality. We need full lives, meaningful lives to live with, something worth doing to get you up from bed every day and go to the fight. I see people with empty lives every day, I see people without control of their lives every day, I listen to empty stories of people who live far beyond the automatic because the real world is fucking, the real world is a woman in the Fifth pregnancy and you do not even know why you did not even ask to have a lather, and you do not care, you already have four children and it will come with one more, as much as it did, one more or less one, the person Already lost the glint in the look.
I have friends who have already lost that “glitter in their eyes” are new but they do not care, they are getting fatter, drinking more than they should, stagnating in jobs, no goals in life, no future to dream up there, Pretending sometimes that everything is fine, posting pictures on barbecues on the beaches … But I, as I am a friend, dig deeper into the conversation and the house of cards falls, the marriage is not going well, the parents are not good, they betray the wives with Women much worse off than themselves and low-level, do not have a financial mattress and neither patrimonial nor personal security. It’s a really crazy, empty, sad life.
I do not know how some people do to put themselves in this situation. I can not just tell her to become aware. I believe that all this has deep roots. It is basically such a lack of self-esteem that one gives oneself to life if one plays on autopilot for whatever comes and does not plan anything else.
The good thing about studying investments and (if you have already got here) is that you care about the minimum, with at least having a living support to support (a real financial reserve) in assets in banks and brokers, a (Preferably taken off and yours) an investment plan and deadlines, a life insurance policy (preferably if you are right at the beginning and someone depends on you (parents or children) and the fact that you have a chance To dream about a better future and work for it.Ah Frugal, so you’re telling me that in order to be happy I have to get home, work, save, have reserves, invest and raise money?
Happiness is much more than that, this is just a beginning, a step, happiness is a feeling of fullness and well-being that you can reach and extend to your others, which starts with example a house, nowadays me I feel happy just to own my own ap, just for a few hundred kilos of brick, cement and sand in my name, so I can go in and close the door and have some juice. Only that. If you do not think so, try to see the tired eyes of people getting screwed from work so that at the end of the month they only pay a rent and there is not much left over to close the rest of the accounts. And you know how I know that? Why it hurt me every month to get 600 reais, to give all those notes (THAT ton of CASH) to me at that time and to deliver exactly in the hand of the mistress of the apartment and to see her smile and give me a receipt only, even though I am sweaty and fucked In a hellish heat and she does not even offer a glass of water).
So living is not just enough, a lot of pain and a lot of disgrace can happen to you only by making foolish decisions, not fighting anymore, not wanting more, not giving up on certain pleasures, and tell you something else, pain calls more Pain, where in your life something is going to be disorganized, more things get messy around and so it goes.
Incredibly, my uneducated parents have created me and my siblings in fact that at least the three of us managed to get a little better in life than they did, we did higher courses at a federal level and we got more or less well-paid jobs in private and public initiatives, And from there life gets itself, from there it’s up to you. It is difficult to overcome the cycle of poverty from one generation to another, but it is possible. It is possible to do better in a contest than a child of a couple of the upper middle class, and it is even common, even more in these times of the internet and where you can improve your life just using a PC as I said in the previous post.
You do not have to live an empty life, melancholy, bitter, wasted, being lost little by little, you do not have to kill yourself little by little, get drunk gradually, betray partners and friends all the time simply because you have no education or money base or At least hope to succeed one day. Not having money is not a defect, not having an education is not a defect.
The defect is one, it is not recognizing an error or the mistakes, the defect is not changing, it is not fighting, it is not dreaming and not behaving better. The defect is to give up living life, dying slowly and dragging more people into the black hole of their existence. The good life does not give us so many choices, the right one, whoever you are, wherever or how you are, is studying, reading, working, saving, taking care of the body with reasonable food, avoiding drugs, contributing, being a simple person, working For a better future, because the day he arrives you will not even realize that he will already be in another physical and mental planet, living with wonderful people and being a much better person, in every way and will have at least a good death and a Good Life.
Do not give in, ENJOY YOUR LIFE, for real.